I’ve Been Struck By WantsPosted: February 21, 2012
Okay—I don’t know if it is just because I’m frustrated because I feel as if I’ve been saving for so long or what but ugh! Honestly, I haven’t spent my personal money on anything mainly because I can’t really decide what I want to spend it on. But I noticed when I was at Wal-Mart and the book store that people were buying all sorts of stuff. And I won’t lie—some of it was stuff I wanted. But I made a deal with myself that I would try really, really hard to not buy a book until I had gone through at least most of the stack that is currently sitting in my pseudo-office. (The purchase at the book store was a gift for a little 2-year-old so that wasn’t really cheating)
But on Sunday, I woke up at my normal time and started to arrange my books on the new bookshelf that was my house purchase. And then I was looking at some of the series that I own and love and “noticed” that I don’t have all of the books in that series. Now I know for a fact that I’ve known that I don’t have the complete series but for some reason on Sunday it was really killing me that I didn’t have them. I have a piece of paper front and back filled with books that I really want to own. And it is just about killing me to not have them. But I’m trying to remember that deal I made with myself and not buy any of them. The sad part is, I could—I have my personal money but I don’t feel like spending all that money right now. (And okay, I couldn’t really buy all of them with the amount I have but it would be a start).
So I went through all of the books and was honest with myself about what books I’d been keeping but not reading/wanting/liking. Now, I still don’t want to buy another book until I go through most of that stack but I can slowly bring in the pile of books and rack up credit on a gift card. (I will make one small disclaimer—I plan on hitting the library this weekend where they are having a book sale but I’m going to be smart. The books are only $.25 or $.50 a piece and I only plan on looking. If they have some of the series I want or a few others, I might buy them) But it is still hard—I really have been hit hard by wanting these last few days.
What do you do when you get frustrated by being smart and not buying things? (And I really want things right now…) I can only stay out of stores for so long—Wal-Mart is the worse and it’s where I do my grocery shopping.