Alberit Einstein defined insanity as:Posted: November 1, 2011
“Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.”
How true this was for my life. I kept doing everything the same way. Couldn’t find a better paying job—but I went about looking the same way for about 3 years. Had a lot of relationship problems—I kept doing the same thing. Financially I was a wreck—I’d be making a lot less then what I was living on. I could justify it out the wazoo though. “I’ll pay it back”, “I just need it to tide me over”, “Budget? Why bother? I don’t make enough to save”—these were just some of the lines I used on myself.
To this day, I can pin point the exact moment when I decided to change in all three areas. We’ll leave out the relationship drama except to say that I’m truly happy with the choice I made to change and the one I’m with now. For the job hunt—I went in, I applied online, and I did everything I could do. Or so I thought—I was working with a very…plain resume and didn’t have a huge network. I made a deal with myself after moving from the East Coast to mid-Us—I would be ‘content’ to work a minimum wage job for a year—after that I wanted something better. I applied to multiple locations; I had help with the resume and busted my butt at my then job to gain a supervisor position (with a $.50 raise) and about 10 months into it I was contacted by my current job. I impressed at the interview by talking to the amazing lady who had helped me get my foot in the door and a few days later I gave my 2 weeks to the job I was in.
That helped me start the journey into my PLAN. Sure I could have continued doing what I had been doing—but what was that going to do? I didn’t have a bank account, no phone, dodging calls/letters and was constantly trying to hide from the facts of my debt. So I stopped beating my head against the wall and told myself: “Hey! Listen up! BUDGET! Get out of debt! You have a better paying job—save!!” It still wasn’t easy and as I said—it took a few tries to get something that worked for us. But I stopped feeling insane. I started to feel like things I were doing was actually helping us get back on track. No more robbing Peter to pay Paul.